Its hard to believe I am already 4 weeks into my 3 month internship at IHOP-KC. thats crazy! Im really enjoying it so far. The saying around here when speaking of the internship, is often compared to drinking from a fire hose. Im finding that to be very true, but Ive also been receiving alot of grace to take it in and really enjoy these weeks. The environment for the internship is very condusive for people to learn and grow no matter what stage of life or maturity. we have class 5 days a week, about 20+ hours in the prayer room, as well as small groups and fri/sat night service and service hours. (i get to usher the prayer room, its cool!)
I am pressing hard into God with 80 others. some grandparents, some young married couples, some wet behind the ear in the Lord, some seasoned intercessors and many in my own stage of life, young people who love the Lord, are in a new season, wondering why they are here and have just made some crazy sacrifices and are searching out their identities in God. We are learning how to push into God and to keep going after the deep things of God with endurance, working out the muscles of our spirit. All the while receiving lots of grace, joy, empowerment, confidence and other great rewards in the spirit.
I have to say that it took me a little bit to settle into learning how to engage with God in the prayer room. After the first week or so I was so spiritually exhausted, i didn't know what to do. It was wierd, I was like Lord, I dont feel like worshipping, I have nothing else to give, my spirit is tired. I think it was the next day that I began to feel the newness of His grace. I literally think i woke up the next morning with joy, strength and excitement. I love my time in the prayer room now and lately am desiring more of it. I started scheduling my time in the prayer room, that has been extremely benficial. I find that i have alot more freedom and get alot more accomplished. amazing, huh?
Its been a crazy journey over the last 5 months. Jenn and I haven't lived in the same place for more than a couple weeks at a time and I miss her. There has been alot of grace for us though and we are both excited for life to settle down a little bit. She moves up to Kc in mid November and that will be good for both of us. Pray for her to have strength and grace in this new season. She has a wicked cool and a pretty demanding job at IHOP-KC, serving as an admin to Kirk Bennett, and taking on the Justice division here (which is doing AWESOME things). She is also raising her budget to live the lifestyle of a prayer missionary, so pray for her and if you are led to do so, she has a link on the right side of her blog where you can donate quickly and securely http://whatintheworldisawinnie.blogspot.com
pray for me that I would make friends here, I would have even more endurance to keep going hard after the deep things of God and that I would see what the Lord wants me to do after the internship. I am hoping to get back into T-Mobile and continue working there, so pray that there would be a door open for me.
write me a note and let me know how you are doing. I miss having friends that know and understand me. I miss springfield and will come see you soon. promise!
arin.
24 October 2009
27 July 2009
furious longing of God
I started reading a new book by brennan manning called 'the furious longing of God' which is pairing well with the stirrings that God is already working within me. Many of these are truths I've heard before, but reading Brennan Manning's rich poetical style, makes it fresh.
In the first chapter he talks about God's intense desire for us and describes it as a furious longing. I love even in this first chapter I'm already connecting with what He is talking about. He refers to a section in the song of songs (SOS 7:10) that he has prayed for many years 'I am my beloved's and his desire is for me' he says about this verse when you take it very personally that
"a number of beautiful things come to pass:
-The drumbeats of doom in your head will be replaced by a song in your heart, which could lead to a twinkle in your eye.
-You will not be dependent on the company of others to ease your loneliness, for He is Emmannuel--God with us.
-The praise of others will not send your spirit soaring, nor will their criticism plunge you into the pit. Their rejection may make you sick, but it will not be a sickness unto death.
-In a significant interior development you will move from I 'should' pray to I 'must' pray.
-You will live with an awareness that the Father not only loves you, but likes you.
-You will stop comparing yourself to others. In the same way, you will not trumpet your own importance, boast about your victories in the vineyard, or feel superior to anyone.
-You will read Zephaniah 3:17-18 and see God dancing for joy because of you.
-Off and on throughout the day, you will just know that you are being seen by Jesus with a gaze of infinite tenderness."
I think brennan manning is dead on!
I desire to walk with The lord in this way.
Lord, change me.
-The drumbeats of doom in your head will be replaced by a song in your heart, which could lead to a twinkle in your eye.
-You will not be dependent on the company of others to ease your loneliness, for He is Emmannuel--God with us.
-The praise of others will not send your spirit soaring, nor will their criticism plunge you into the pit. Their rejection may make you sick, but it will not be a sickness unto death.
-In a significant interior development you will move from I 'should' pray to I 'must' pray.
-You will live with an awareness that the Father not only loves you, but likes you.
-You will stop comparing yourself to others. In the same way, you will not trumpet your own importance, boast about your victories in the vineyard, or feel superior to anyone.
-You will read Zephaniah 3:17-18 and see God dancing for joy because of you.
-Off and on throughout the day, you will just know that you are being seen by Jesus with a gaze of infinite tenderness."
I think brennan manning is dead on!
I desire to walk with The lord in this way.
Lord, change me.
18 June 2009
moving.
hi friends,
This is not an easy note to write. I would even put up there on the level of difficulty with my moms eulogy i wrote a week or two ago. I'm sure you know I've had a lot go on in the recent past. I haven't had the time or energy to put into words what exactly is going on in my life. So i thought id leave you a note and fill you in.
After ten years, springfield and I are parting ways. I cant imagine even beginning to count the number of people that have had an impact on my life here and facebook wont even let me tag enough friends to allow even the most important ones. i made so many connectons through Missouri State, Chi Alpha, vineyard, downtown springfield, Belmonte, pretty/ugly, et al.
You probably know that i spent a month in Charlotte, NC at ZHOP back in October. I went for a one month internship to devote myself to prayer because I felt Gods leadership drawing me there. I had a great time and i really believe in the ministry there. While i was there i felt a longing in my heart to spend more time there. I have been praying about this since then and sometime in February made the decision to just do it. Just move to Charlotte and at least give it a shot. This move feels like a four letter word for faith: R-I-S-K. I had to throw that one in there. i think more than anything what i will miss about springfield will be my family of friends at the vineyard. i love you. you are irreplaceable, i know this.
The days to come will find me in Charlotte, NC. I am going to live in a community of people who are all part of a ministry called zhop (zadok house of prayer) a 24/7 worship and prayer house. I look forward to getting involved with the house of prayer on a part time basis while continuing to work for T-mobile at a nearby store. As i have been praying i have heard the word "preparation." So, i really feel the Lord is getting me ready for some things, which i think is exciting.
the certainties:
i am moving june 25th.
i will miss all of you.
you can find my address on my facebook profile
i will be back, i promise
uncertainties:
how long?
I don't think this is permanent, i'm quite certain of this. Just for now, it is something i feel I need to do.
what i will do with myself.
after ten years in a city, if your name is arin, you meet lots people, make lots of friends, find an amazing church, you run a music venue you start a band and you become quite comfortable. . .none of these of which are in charlotte. :( So, I am looking forward to being a little uncomfortable, though i am sure there will be more challenges than i hope for. :)
not sure what else to say. i know alot of you have been wondering and asking. so i hope this answers some or all of your questions. if you have questions you can comment here or email me.
with all my heart, i will miss you.
arin.
This is not an easy note to write. I would even put up there on the level of difficulty with my moms eulogy i wrote a week or two ago. I'm sure you know I've had a lot go on in the recent past. I haven't had the time or energy to put into words what exactly is going on in my life. So i thought id leave you a note and fill you in.
After ten years, springfield and I are parting ways. I cant imagine even beginning to count the number of people that have had an impact on my life here and facebook wont even let me tag enough friends to allow even the most important ones. i made so many connectons through Missouri State, Chi Alpha, vineyard, downtown springfield, Belmonte, pretty/ugly, et al.
You probably know that i spent a month in Charlotte, NC at ZHOP back in October. I went for a one month internship to devote myself to prayer because I felt Gods leadership drawing me there. I had a great time and i really believe in the ministry there. While i was there i felt a longing in my heart to spend more time there. I have been praying about this since then and sometime in February made the decision to just do it. Just move to Charlotte and at least give it a shot. This move feels like a four letter word for faith: R-I-S-K. I had to throw that one in there. i think more than anything what i will miss about springfield will be my family of friends at the vineyard. i love you. you are irreplaceable, i know this.
The days to come will find me in Charlotte, NC. I am going to live in a community of people who are all part of a ministry called zhop (zadok house of prayer) a 24/7 worship and prayer house. I look forward to getting involved with the house of prayer on a part time basis while continuing to work for T-mobile at a nearby store. As i have been praying i have heard the word "preparation." So, i really feel the Lord is getting me ready for some things, which i think is exciting.
the certainties:
i am moving june 25th.
i will miss all of you.
you can find my address on my facebook profile
i will be back, i promise
uncertainties:
how long?
I don't think this is permanent, i'm quite certain of this. Just for now, it is something i feel I need to do.
what i will do with myself.
after ten years in a city, if your name is arin, you meet lots people, make lots of friends, find an amazing church, you run a music venue you start a band and you become quite comfortable. . .none of these of which are in charlotte. :( So, I am looking forward to being a little uncomfortable, though i am sure there will be more challenges than i hope for. :)
not sure what else to say. i know alot of you have been wondering and asking. so i hope this answers some or all of your questions. if you have questions you can comment here or email me.
with all my heart, i will miss you.
arin.
21 December 2008
16 December 2008
my prayer.
psalm 119:33-40 teach me o lord the way of your statutes and i shall keep it to the end. give me understanding and i shall keep your law. indeed i shall observe it with my whole heart. make me walk in the path of your commandments, for i delight in it. incline my heart to your testimonies and not to covetousness. turn away my eyes from looking at worthless things, and revive me in your way. establish your word to your servant, who is devoted to fearing you. turn away my reproach which i dread, for your judgements are good. behold i long for your precepts; revive me in your righteousness.
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